i will never make millions, oprah will never have me as a guest on her show about womens accomplishments, i will never make the cover of wired magazine, and i can never weigh 125 pounds again! these are things that i must come to realize if i really want to move forward. sometimes i forget that i am actually living the life i always dreamed for myself when i was younger- a career, a family, a good husband (still dont have the house yet but its coming soon enough) and i look at what other people have, but NOT in an envious, evil eye sort of way- but rather in a why cant i be like that way. for example. why cant i be in a book club? (i read books all the time and i dont know why i would want to be in a bookclub but nonetheless… ) why cant ayman help me with the cooking? i want to go mountain climbing, or travelling the world on a tour, or go diving. i want to study my masters (not really!) ……………………. ok is started out with a thought and i wanted to write about and expand but im too tired to do anything really!!! so ill continue whenever.
