Me Myself And I

i havent written in such a long time!! its 11:47 and i couldnt put down ‘eat, pray, love’  by elizabeth gilbert. i really do like her writing.  after i finally did put it down it made me nostalogic for my blog. since i last wrote, i have grown and learned. i am not a dreamer anymore, i like to think that i live for the time being, at the time being. and now i realize that i can decide for myself, despite what everyone around me thinks, what i want and when i want it and not have to feel guilty for wanting or for choosing it. i know now that i love to write, ive always loved to write and honestly ive always know that so no big revelation here. i remember writing down my feelings when i was younger but i would only write when i was mad and then i would crumble the paper and throw it in the garbage, still somehow it brought me some relief. i really wish i had kept my writing… i even write in my head, not literally ofcourse, but the words do come out.. the story of myself has been following me around since i started thinking- through all my ups and downs, through every stage.  one day i have to put it down, maybe this blog is a part of it… i work in writing, writing code that is. but writing nonetheless. it has just started drizzling and i can hear the drops hitting the hurricane shutters, i think its time for me to close those windows and go to sleep now. i need sleep to be able to get up in the morning… it was a passing shower.. no need to get up now… nope its raining harder again, i have to get up. until we meet again my blog, my words….