Me Myself And I

alrighty! i havent written in my blog in a long time as manal reminded me yesterday so my update thus far.. everything has been going ok with me and being pregnant and all. shes healthy and kicking all the time! and as for me im happy and healthy too. two days ago the company i work for gave me the ok to work from home. yey!! we’ll have to work out the arrangements on how many hrs ill be required to come into the office but at least i wont have to be there full time and i wont have to opt to send my baby to a daycare! the more i thought about sending her to a daycare the more it made me uneasy because as a baby if anything were to happen to her or if they didnt take of her she wouldnt be able to tell me anything and i would have no idea of knowing what was going on with her. ill send her, hopefully, when she can at least talk and when shes potty trained, that way itll be safer for her and i can rest a little easier.

i posted a post a few months back about not being able to decide to whether i wanted to work or stay at home. after i re read that post i realised that it was hard for me at the time not only because i couldnt decide what would be best for baby and family but i was afraid of what ppl would say here… whether they would accept me or what i was doing or not. whether they would think that i was pretending to be a business woman and not considerate enough of my child.. in the end i cam to realize that ppl will talk no matter what so i have to do what i find is best. but i think its worth nothing in the entry that my real fears at the time were what ppl would think of me! after i got over that everything seems to be going more smoothly. i  found enough courage to ask to work from and the company accepted my proposal so all went well in the end..

im thinking of starting a blog only for my baby and maybe posting what im going thru at the time can be helpful to some mothers out there- if they have enough time to be online in the first place   and posting pictures and little accomplishments and milestones she achieves! ill see how that goes, inshallah ill do it..

i called ayman my big teddy bear and gave him a big bear hug.. and he loved it so much in the begining he thought i was dreaming (we were in bed when i told him) and he asked me twice this morning about it and i could tell from the sound of his voice and they way he smiled and laughed that he liked it when i called him my big teddy bear and gave him a hug.. that man!